When you are lost, what do you do? How do you bring yourself back?
Many times I will spend my time sitting out on my patio, listening to the wind and nature and just being.
Other times I sit with my cats and watch them play and interact with each other. Animals that are typically solitary, not these guys. They are very much a family. They offer support to each other, and compassion. They play together and cuddle and groom the other. They give me hope each day.
But the place I go to the most for clarity, for center, for understanding is my art journal. A journaler from a very early age I fill pages with words. Words that say so much. And then I make art. Sometimes right over top of the words, sometimes within the words, and occassionally without the need for words at all.
I feel for you. I spend a lot of time staring into space while sitting in “my corner” a special space I’ve created in my garden. Sometimes it is not enough and that’s when I pick an area in my home and start purging and cleaning. There’s something about tossing stuff into the bin or taking a trip to the dump that heals me. Hope you’re feeling better soon.
I have a difficult time being or getting quiet (shocking to hear, huh?). When I am feeling lost I know I must at least get still first. I start with my music, with headphones. I have created playlists for this sort of thing. I find my emotion, my words, my path, my inspiration, my center in music. Then I must get “it” out of me – whether I type it, write it, paint it, digitally create it – whatever – I just must get “it” out of my head. I have found that once I get whatever I am struggling with (“it”) outside of my head I can see it more clearly and think more clearly.
Start with your first commandment: Be Christy